do you remember

Do you remember when we ran around at the park playing tag? Do you remember when I lived right across the street from you and we'd go to each others door asking to play? Seems like all to fast we grew up and moved away. We all had different lives, met new people and made new best friends, but when I came home and walked on the sidewalks where I carved our names, I remember...I remember the great times we had, the $60.00's worth of candy we bought, the times we comforted each other when things didn't go right...we went through alot together and I remember...do you remember?

"Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Let's bring it back"

only yours

The worst thing I've ever done is leave your arms...I've memorized every crease in your shirt against my cheek, the feel of your arms squeezing my body close, I've memorized the look in your eyes when you tell me you love me and the smiles you give me; How you blush when i giggle at you. I know every detail of us and our lives together. Baby, I will never forget you and I know soon, that we will be together in each others arms.

You're my everything sweetie, always and forever

 tm01312010 <3

people always leave...

She said, 'People always leave, people always leave...and i hate it'.

 Today I said goodbye to my oldest friend. We had dinner at our favorite restaurant and reminisced about the old days. Remembering the summer rain hitting our faces and soaking our clothes as we danced and jumped in the puddles...jumping from memory to memory of how we would sit it in class passing notes and talking. We had our traditions of sleeping at my house and eating Cheetos and oreos in the middle of the night. We would get lost in memories, laughing and enjoying the time we had left together when Jess looks out the window and we realize that it was raining...just for us. We looked out the window for a while smiling. It truly is the little miracles that make the    big differences. At the end, when everything got dark and we had to say goodbye, we hugged and held on for a while, crying. The rain was still falling so for old times sake, we danced. And laughed. The last thing we did was pinky promise that even though we'd be far apart, we'd stay friends and never drift apart again. In that moment, i realized i was saying goodbye to the girl who was always there for me, that i could always trust with my secrets, the one i had so many memories with over the course of three years, i was saying goodbye to my best friend. I love you Jessica Allen.
Pinky promise we'll always be close. <3

People always leave, people always leave...but do they really?

i'm stretched thin

Everyone is calling me, left an right I hear my name. I agree to help because I can't say no. I run here and I run there, everywhere. My head is spinning, I'm stretched too thin. I should learn to say no and accept the disappointment in your eyes but I can't, I refuse. I stop. I remember the breathing exercise I learned just today so I breathe.I remember the person's voice telling me what to do.

Deep breath in.Deep breath out. Deep breath in. Deep breath out.  Feel your breathe through your body to your abdomen. Relax.

I relax. I am now calm. Ready for work. But maybe next time...I won't stretch myself too thin.

things change

People change. All the time. Life changes. Constantly. But it seems you never see it change until it's to late. You don't notice the the change of seasons until the colors of the leaves are in front of you, you don't notice how fast the time has past until it's the last day of school, you don't realize the break in a friendship until there is no longer a friendship...where does the time go? I guess at this point it doesn't matter, the leaves that changed color already fell off their branch and died, school's back in, and those best friends no longer talk. But what is crazy is the good that comes with change. You lose things but you gain things that mean so much more. For me, it was first a friendship lost but also, it was a friendship rekindled. Laughter that used to be so familiar is now warming me up again. Things change. But I guess if it's that, it's okay.